Olly Murs "turned to drink and was on brink of depression" after an appearance on 8 out of 10 cats.
In extracts from his autobiography, published in The Mirror, Murs revealed how "For the first time in my career I didn't feel happy. I was so drained and down. I wasn't enjoying anything I was doing. I was just working, working, working, working."
Murs was the runner up on X Factor in 2009, and since then has had a string of hits and begun his career as a TV presenter alongside Caroline Flack on The Xtra Factor.
But having had a No. 1 single with 'Heart Skips A Beat' last year, Murs hit a low point:
"Strangely enough, although I was proper ecstatic about the number one, after the initial excitement I started to feel a bit odd."
"I couldn’t put my finger on why but I started to sense that something wasn't right. I did 8 Out of 10 Cats with comedian Jimmy Carr, but I wasn’t really myself."
“The new album was coming out so there was all of that to complete. It just merged into one, without a break. I was exhausted.
"It wasn’t just the workload. I was anxious about how I’d be received on The Xtra Factor. Would people like it? Was my music going to be affected? How would I handle the live shows? How would my next single do? My head was spinning…"
Murs explained how before the appearance on 8 Out of 10 Cats, his manager Sarah Thomas gave him background advice but he ignored it:
"I was like, ‘Yeah whatever, I’ll just blag it…’ The whole thing was a disaster.
"I was rubbish. I hardly said anything, I pretty much just sat there, feeling strange. My head was all over the place.
Sarah and Murr’s tour manager Mark Murphey sat him down to tell him some home truths:
Mark was like, ‘I think you could be depressed.’ I was getting even more defensive now. I was like, ‘Me? Depressed? I’m not f***ing depressed! Why would I be depressed?’
A week prior to this episode, Murs was on Celebrity Juice where he was allowed to drink on set.
“I remember getting really drunk, I felt like I just wanted to drink – note that word, ‘wanted’ to drink. I;ve never ‘wanted to drink in my life!
"After Celebrity Juice I was like, 'Give me another vodka!'and I was getting really p****d. I felt like I needed a boost and drinking was that boost.
"Looking back, I don’t think I was depressed, as it happens – I was just exhausted, run down. I was sitting there crying even though my career could not have been going any better. Something clearly wasn’t right.
After discussing the matter with Sarah, Murs realised he was in need of a well-earned break.
"I know I’m really lucky to do what I do but sometimes with the hours and the travelling, I don’t get to see my family and friends as much as I’d like.
"It can be lonely on the road. Sometimes I come offstage after a massive adrenaline rush and then when I go to an empty hotel room on my own it can be anti-climatic."
Happy Days by Olly Murs is published by Coronet and out on October 11, price £16.99.